awesome jason at work

remodeling was first adding insulation --was only 1" now is over 24" or R40 this is the cheapest thing you can do to a home to save energy.
nnext is Jason mudding each room to cover slats then doing a chicken track finish then  paintin

g  original color---- wow what an awesome job he does -his g/f Brandee is in charge of putting things away household items and decorating and cooking--i am adopting them both in my heart at least.

my 1911 house before remodeling

I promised a miracle and now must produce it eh? I am alive and just bought a 2bdrm victorian house and moved into it even as sick as i was-wow you talk about adrenlin-i forced myself to buy the house -furniture and then drive 25 miles each day till i could sign papers and move in. I thank my dear friends locally who have put out great effort to move me in -will be publishing pics of the house and perhaps even me-lol yes still skinny but am forcing myself to eat-i know i left sl abruptly but had to be that way if i was going to move into the real world. This will be short since i just got internet.
Never never never give up  the sign on my front porch says kicking cancers ass and i damn sure am trying to do so

miracle

I have repeatedly told you God has promised a miracle when I died and came back. The miracle is happening, thanks to so many friends helping me and praying for me. Two months ago I had no appetite as many terminally ill cancer patients go through the process.  Every day I take my meds and pain meds and get on my old trusty cheap stationary bicycle and ride it like I am in the tour de France. Push your limits in every thing you do in life and even with love. My bp once hit 205/190 or so and now is down to almost normal. While in intensive care after my cardiac arrest and flurry of heart attacks, 8 or more, in two days I had a heart to heart talk to my doctor. I told him straight out-Doc this is now just an insurance game and I am so bored here so send me home so I can die with dignity and honor. I had nobody at home at that time to help me in anyway. Then along came a dear friend, Debbie, who needed a place to live till she could be with her boyfriend. Daily she would get on my case-quit whining about your pain and suffering Rich and fight it damn you. I know of nobody who has been through more than Deb-she has been shot -stabbed and died 4 times and stomach cancer and untold operations but never complained one iota. God had to have sent Deb to me-She is now with her boyfriend and doing well and still checks up on me weekly. We think we have friends-they say they are-but until you get deathly sick you never know if they are loyal or not. My ex wife and I became great friends after our divorce and was always there encouraging me too. Sadly at 53 she had a sudden heart attack and died. I will miss her company.  Now I find beauty and laughter daily in almost everything I see and do, even simple things. Will Rogers once said " If there is no malice in your heart then there will be none in your words"

update

Sorry-been having some problems-was losing weight very fast-down to 112 pounds now-but have decided that was due to the ensure giving me protein for muscles-which i now have-hahaa not much but muscles-i take pain medicine then get on an old exercise bike both with and without my oxygen on.
I have no idea of what to do to heal myself-all i can do is listen to what God tells me to do-so far it is working. i have so many thanks to online friends who have helped me get through some terrible times-special Christmas thanks to the special dreamgirls you are lifesavers for sure-this is the season for miracles and i guess that means for me too. we all have miracles in our life-some small, some large. sometimes the worst things in life , traumatic at the time, turn out in hindsight, to be the best things that could have happened:an example:s this car crash was terrible but without it i never would have met you---stay positive thinking. i am truly blessed with close friends- i have within  this last year cut off many who were there for whatever material things they could scam me out of-i still feel sorry for them. when i died march 1, 2011 there was no material things that arrived with me for my visit with my creator but there was a special gift-no more pain and no more suffering-i knew that by returning to life on earth meant pain and suffering and did not want to return-yes we all have a purpose in life-we need to just see the confidence deep within us to see what good we could be if we just stop trying to control our lives and learn faith.
i admit i was not religious -probably leaning towards agnostic before i died-am i religious now? nope, but i sure know you will be amazed after your death-yes there is sooooooo much more after life on earth-for some it will be a wonderful experience and for some it will be an experience they deserve and not a good one they might like-not for me to judge-I AM, God, decides that and alone too. Bless each one of you and keep you and your families safe-share that part of you which you hide from the world and help others here on earth . Don't worry about recognition for what you do because you will get all the recognition you need if your heart is sincere----happy holidays worldwide to those good people with good hearts-big teddy bear hugs to you all

Cancer changes

how doctors and nurses dealing with cancer patients should hange their viewpoints. the science of cancer is just unraveling just as it has for many years -therefore we need to stop labeling cancer patients as 1st stage 4th stage, end of life etc. who thought of those terms and who decided that 4th stage is the final stage-i tell people that i am 4th stage and terminal but all of us are terminal from the moment we are born-a car might hit us at an early stage in life and that damn sure would be terminal. by labeling it depresses most patients and causes them to simply give up all hope of defeating it and that is such a great shame- they put me on end of life hospice care for a few months till i quit the program-simply made no sense to just give up-yes maybe for medical bills it made sense-they would not have to pay any more for my health care but i think positive thinking has so much to do with how u fight diseases and injuries.
will add more thoughts later-sorry-am tired

Amazing

amazing things are happening.not sure what is going on-the ensure has allowed me to gain weight -a little, 10 pounds or so but the weight has changed my breathing-perhaps increased weight from my stomach onto my hiatal hernia-dont know but somehow i believe a miracle is now happening-we will see-i will let u know in about 2 months or so-all i iknow is when i use my oxygen bottle now i seem to feel bad so my lungs are now being forced to expand and get larger-i guess my body can heal itself-my creater said it would so we will see. keep the prayers coming-seems to be working